Friday, January 23, 2009

SHOULD I GIVE HIM ANOTHER CHANCE?

THIS TIME LAST YEAR I WAS ENGAGED TO A MAN AND WE HAD ONLY KNEW EACH OTHER FOR A SHORT TIME. I LIKED HIM AND HE WAS NICE TO ME BUT THERE WAS NO LOVE THERE. I AM THE KIND OF PERSON THAT REALLY DOESN'T BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OR FALLING IN LOVE. I BELIEVE THAT LOVE IS A CHOICE AND I KNEW THAT IF HE AND I WORKED AT IT THINGS WOULD BE OKAY. WELL THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN TRUE IF I HAD JUST LET THINGS HAPPEN, BUT I GOT FREAKED.
THE DRESS WAS IN LAYAWAY AND THINGS WERE ON A ROLL,BUT I JUST COULDN'T GET PASSED THE FACT THAT I WAS GOING TO BE MARRIED. THAT WAS A BIG STEP.
WELL I BROKE OFF THE MARRIAGE AND ENDED THE RELATIONSHIP. HE TOOK IT VERY BADLY. I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT HIM AND I KNOW THAT I DID AND I AM TRULY SORRY FOR WHAT I DID.

NOT TO LONG AGO I STARTED TALKING TO HIM AGAIN AND I HOPE THAT I AM NOT MAKING A MISTAKE. HE DID HAVE SOME ANGER ISSUES AND SOME PERSONALITY ISSUES. I KNOW THAT HE IS A GOOD PERSON BUT I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW HE WILL HANDLE THINGS WHEN THEY ARE NOT THE WAY HE WANTS THEM TO BE. I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW THAT HE WILL DO WHAT EVER I WANT BUT I AM NOT SURE THAT I REALLY WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIM. I CAN NOT MAKE HIM WHAT I WANT. YOU CANT CHANGE PEOPLE AND PEOPLE RARELY EVER CHANGE. THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT THE MORE I REALIZE THAT WE SHOULD JUST BE FRIENDS AND LEAVE IT AT THAT. I JUST HOPE THAT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO.

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